Snake and Ladder Game and my journey to fertility

I feel like playing the Snake and Ladder game. I am one month away from the embryo transfer. Now, I am trying to make my calculated move- trying to avoid the snakes. My game has reached its climax as I and my husband are about to reach our goal. I can see the finish line from here. I am nervously praying hard as I must get a 'five' in order to land on a safe space. In one more turn, we will safely reach our goal. My journey to fertility has lots of obstacles. If I roll a 'three', I will be bitten by the snake. And, I need to start over another round of frozen embryo transfer. If I roll a 'six', I will be bitten by the snake. And, I need another round of lymphocyte immunization therapy.

Everyone has finished playing this game already. I am the only player left playing! I am the unluckiest person who keeps on being bitten by the snakes. This game seems like an endless loop to me. Should I blame the dice? Should I blame the rules? Or should I blame my autoimmunity? Why did the other autoimmune patient make it to the finish line? We don't have control over the dice! I surrender to my fate!

What is important right now is to have little more patience. We almost there. Stay positive! Worrying does not increase our chance. If I am bitten by the snake again and start from square one, let us see. I hope I can safely roll a 'five' and everything will be smooth sailing.

I believe everyone can reach the finish line in the Snake and Ladder game. But, Idealism maybe totally different from reality. To me pregnancy is god's grace. What is ought to be shall ought to happen. If I have tried my best but nothing happens, then I should learn to accept my fate.

Lymphocyte immunization therapy, ivig, neupogen, viagra, clexane, prednisolone and whatelse... If this does not result into implantation, I will do pgs on all frozen embryos. If no still no implantation, yay! I surrender to my fate!