I went to Putuoshan to pray. There are four 送子观音 songzi guanyin in the island.
In the first statue, I asked god for a baby. Then I suddenly remembered my friend, who had fetal rejection. I remembered her pelvic chain story. She had delivered premature babies. One died after two months of incubation. Oh my god, I prayed for "a" baby. I should say babies. Oops, one more thing the baby boy who died had ROP retinopathy of prematurity.
I prayed in the second statue that I want healthy babies - change "Y" to "I"+ "ES". Ooops, what if the baby is healthy but mentally retarded?
I prayed in the third statue that I want to have intelligent and healthy babies. What if, what if and what if my life will be in danger?
Finally, I prayed: Guanyin Pusha, I came here to ask/pray for babies, I surrender to your will. I just pray for smooth and uncomplicated pregnancy.
But I found on the web that AS is not scary after all. In contrast to my doctors advise. Of course, my doctors are speaking based on their experience. Maybe those remarks were exaggerated.
http://www.spondylitis.org/patient_resources/women.aspx
http://www.medicinenet.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=16694&page=2
http://www.arthritistoday.org/about-arthritis/arthritis-and-your-health/pregnancy/pregnancy-and-ankylosing-spondylitis.php
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