My monstrous obgyne

I cried I lot when My monstrous obgyne said: autoimmune diseases are karmic in nature! I should sue her for slander. Anyway, I dont want to waste my emotions and time for her unprofessional remarks.

My tears had cleared my vision. I will not let negative comments to affect my self-worth. Gee, why did I cry so much? I cried for two days already. Now, I am already dehydrated no more tears. Haha, I have recovered.

I just feel it was unjust. I have bad karma and she tried to drag me to the lowest tier of this society. Why is her perception of autoimmune patients so degrading? Ei, I look like a normal person. I dont have psoriasis. My eyes look normal. I have straight body (for now. ) What is wrong if my father is a killer? I went to her clinic for professional advice not to receive her defamation. What did I do wrong? I never asked for discount from her professional fee. I demand the reciprocity of respect that I have given to her. Now, I accept nothing is fair in this world. She is meant to me superior than me. Because she had good karma.

I don't know why I have cried so much. Shhhh... I haven't told anyone that I have donated to a lupus foundation. I feel somewhat like autoimmune society is where I belong. Maybe that made me to hate her remarks even more.

I am not ashamed of being label as autoimmune disease bad karmic person! I hate her to demeaning autoimmune patients. I feel I am a helpless victim of genetic defect. Whatever... Ok... I accept I am a victim of bad karma! I should suffer uveitis and ankylosing spondylitis for my entire life. I just hope she does not abuse her good karma!

I want to stay happy and optimistic. And I want to enjoy my every moments.  My life is a time bomb after all. Ah... I should start working on my grandest dream. Shhh... I also never told anyone my grandest dream!