I don't play a blaming game here. I put all my trust, I believe and I surrender to Obgyne1. But, there was no positive result the first 10 months of my trying to conceive. Maybe timing was also a factor.
I will ran away from her clinic if on day1, she tells me that my autoimmune disorder is the culprit for my infertility. Because, I have not tried anything yet then. It was funny and sarcastic that I have eventually seek second opinion from my obgyne1. It is like a homecoming. Is it fate that lead us to cross each others path again?
And after shopping around for 4 doctors (1 obgyne, 3 immunologist). I feel it is not comfortable to fully trust, believe and surrender. Same medical books, same medical but different school of thoughts. I am trapped in between. Why did I go back to Obgyne1? Is it a coincidence? For sure, it is my choice! Is Fairy Godmother my fate or my fairy godmother for my fairytale pregnancy?
At first, I don't like my current immunologist. His NK cell scare and his deduction style. As time goes by, I feel my immunologist is not bad. But, his first impression lasts. Ai... on our last consultation he said because my NK cells are active. Grr... I easily catch colds and cough. I always forget to mention this to him. I don't know why I am so sensitive to NK cells. I hate to hear my NK cell is very active. My NK cell has no killing power.
I always forget to ask the C3 and C4. Does C3 and C4 has something to do with NK cell? I am not complaining about my immunologist. Btw, what is my immunologist a fate or a choice? A choice perhaps. Yes, I surrender to Simon.
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