What if I dont deserve to have a baby because I have ankylosing spondylitis? Who set the standards? I just imagined Hitler.
What if my parents did a PGD on me? I guess I will not be born in this world. Should I accept life as a package deal? Should I hate my fate because I have autoimmune disorder?
What if I did a PGD on my embryos and eventually all embryos are HLA-B27 positive? PGD is legal in Hong Kong but not in the Philippines. To the Catholic, life starts at embryo stage. Do I have the right to discard all the embryo?
What if I discarded the seropositive HLA-B27 embryos, but the babies are destined to be asymptomatic throughout their adulthood?
What if my spotting this afternoon is a sign of impending miscarriage? Ai.. I just went to see my obgyne this morning, everything was perfectly fine. This makes me think... what if my baby does not deserve to inherit the HLA-B27 gene?
What if my son has ankylosing spondylitis? Should he thank me for bringing him to this world? Should he detest me for my genes? Am I selfish?
I just believe pregnancy is God's will. I just tried my best to get pregnant and sustain the pregnancy. Come what may. I pray for a miracle.
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