Sunday, June 15, 2014

Insanity or perserverance

Insanity according to Einstein is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different result. Proverb says try and try until you succeed. Am I a loyal follower of Sun Yat-sen? Is perseverance a key to success or is it an act of insanity? After first batch and second batch (with heparin and aspirin) failed, what is next? IUI again? I want to give immunology a try or immediately proceed to IVF?

What if I had LIT and yet I fail my IVF? I heard somebody had 100% PRA but her IVF failed. What if I have my IVF first? I also heard many people had IVF but they knew they have immunologic problem only in the second trimester. 

Since, I doubted my immunology as the culprit of my infertility and I had suspected that I had a miscarriage on my 5th IUI, it is about time to follow my instinct. Refusing LIT will not increase the pregnancy chance. Another counter question is: will LIT increase my pregnancy chance?

After my long merry go round ride, I choose Immunologist2. I have lowered my resistance against LIT. I am volunteering myself as a guinea pig. If I join a combat, I will bring an amulet. Sad to say, there is no scientific evidence on the efficacy of amulet in winning a war. LIT is my amulet. LIT is banned in America because its efficacy is unproven. I will do hysterocopy (polypectomy) if it will increase my pregnancy chance. I will do endometrial scratching, if there is a need. I will wear lucky panty. (Just a hyperbole.)

I hope my crazy ideas is not a manifestation of insanity. According to Einstein, doing the same IUI procedure and strategy over and over again is a true manifestation of insanity. What is my next step?

Keep on trying! Maybe one day my perseverance can move the heavens. I may have success on my eleventh IUI attempt. If that happens, this will be my best Christmas gift ever! Go Sun Yat-Sen! Fight! Ooopss... I knew nothing about history!

I will keep my fighting spirit alive. I will have my LIT then polypectomy and then IVF. Come what may! I need to get a clearance and pregnancy go signal from my immunologist first. My husband karyotype result is annoying. I wished to check it out again as well.

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