I am satisified

I am happy that I have chosen to believe in reproductive immunology. My hardwork has finally paid off. My lymphocyte immunization therapy , ivig and my midnight consultations with my beloved immunolgist did not go to waste.

I am experiencing systemic inflammation now. His prophecy... Oops I used the wrong word again. His advices were true. I wish I had taken Imuran a week ago. Anyway, let it be. I pray that we can still catch up. I pray my immune system will not kill the embryo.

What is next if there is no heart beat? I accept my fate. I will try another round of embryo transfer. Ouch... This mean another rounds of ivig? I will do an embryo biopsy. Huhuhu.... I dont want to think negative for now. 

Can PGS be done on the frozen blastocyst? For what I understand, PGS is done on 8 cell stage (day3). Not sure!

Shhh.... Who knows ivig proteins are attacking my FC and FAB? Who knows maybe the ivig is counter productive to me? Or the systemic inflammation is arthritic in nature? On the brighter side, I did not develop pustules on my sixth lymphocyte immunization therapy. This means my immune system has recognized my husband's HLA already. My immune system is not producing anti-hla-antibody against my husband anymore. My embryo comprises of 50% hla material from me, and 50% from my dear husband. Ehem ehem... My immune system is reprogrammed not to kill the embryo. 

I surrender to god.

Dear baby, 

Please hang on. I love you.