Perhaps I had a caffeine overload last night. I slept at 3:30 am and I woke up at 6 am. I could hear Alex's playful scream from my bedroom. His playful scream gave me the assurance that he was fine. He had bumped his head on the floor last night. Went to the dining room to check what was he doing. I could not go back to sleep. Then, I just ate my breakfast and forced myself to go back to sleep. Maybe it was the temptation that keeps me from my soundful sleep.
Today is the 6th day post blastocyst transfer, three days ahead of my scheduled beta hcg test. I had beta hcg shot last Saturday. I may get a false positive- a false hope. Ouch... Temptations. HPT kit are jinx. I should not use one! Should I test- yes or no?
I will not cry if it turned out to be a negative pregnancy. Will I cry if It turns out to be a false positive? Why am I so eager to test? Crazy Me! Perhaps, I am just an adventure lover. I wish to have a little adrenalin rush. In the end, I was not able to resist the temptation. I opened the kit and tried. Why did I buy the hpt in the first place? I guess it is the thrill of every expectant mom to test before their menstruation arrives? It was written on the hot box that that product detects pregnancy on the first day of missed period. If I ovulated on Nov 3, that means today is the 13th day post ovulation. Right timing to try but at the expense of synthetic hcg shot. Grr.. Curiosity killed me.
Few seconds pasts and I was just seeing a single line. After my bath, was there a new super faint line? Illusion vs reality. I cant wait to take me beta hcg. Hey, was it a false positive?
My beta hcg result were out by noon. Then, what? I realized that I have obsessive compulsive disorder. I could not believe the quantitative value. I feel if the hcg is over a 100, the hpt kit should return two dark lines. Should not it?
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