On the eve of my baby's birthing day, I was transfused with 3 packs of fresh frozen plasma. Unfortunately, I had reaction to the second pack of fresh frozen plasma. I have developed uticarial rashes. I was put on intravenous Benadryl 50mg. Then, the nurse told me that the medicine was a bit sharp and painful when injected. True enough, in a few seconds I have felt the drug running up my vein towards my lungs. Then, I complained I have difficulty in breathing. I felt like passing out. My companion said she can feel my neck veins while I was breathing as if I was striving to breathe. I should have been sedated by Benadryl but I am afraid to sleep. I felt something bad may happen and I have chills also. My companion told me that my voice was terribly weak. I just uttered: aircon off, I cant breathe, press buzzer. Moments later, several hospital coming in and out of my room. After few more minutes, I felt a painful contraction. Then, I began to worry about my baby. Did I just had a drug overdose? Is my baby still alive? I wanted to cry. I am so near to giving birth yet it seems I cannot control my fate. I prayed and I just surrender to my fate. Life is really unfair. Poor me, where is my husband? I dont have the energy to inform him about my tragedy. I was awake but drowsy, but i can feel hospital staffs coming in and out of my room. According to my companion, they seem are in panic mode. Then, the resident doctor rushed to checked my baby's heartbeat with a portable doppler. I was relieved to hear that the baby is still alive.
It was 4 am already, I tried to sleep but I could not. I was too weak to move also. I manage to negotiate a 5 minutes extension because I wish to take a bath first before going to the delivery room. I arrived the delivery room at 5:05 am. I was 5 minutes late but the doctors just came at around 6:15 am. Poor me, I should have a one hour extension instead of 5 minutes extension.
I was around 6:30 when they curled my body like a shrimp and injected a local anesthetics on my spine. i felt like being electrocuted by several thousands of thin wires. Shortly after, I lose control on my legs. Then, they crucified me. they put blood pressure monitor on my right arms and hook morphine on my left arm.
I never thought the medicine on my left hand was morphine. Did morphine let me felt like in cloud nine? I felt my legs were floating. But, I cannot control my legs. I can control my head only during the procedure. I was helpless. My life was in the hands of my obgyne and anesthesiologist. I was shattering, my teeth was clenching and my arms was shaking throughout the entire procedure. I had developed an intense itch from morphine after the procedure. I tried to withstand the itch. Finally, I gave in about 4:30pm. Then, they gave me Nubain- anti itch and anti pain ya. It sounds nice! We can strike two birds with one stone. unfortunately, less than 5 minutes after injecting Nubain, I felt intense heat running down my feet. I was sweating and I had difficulty in breathing. my respiratory rythm was one short inhale and followed by two exhales.
then, I sent an sms to my Obgyne: minimal meds, pls! No more anti-itch and pain killers! I will withstand the pain! is my jinx a product of ghost month? or is it negligence on part of my doctors.
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