The curse...

My obgyne hopes one twin dies early.  So, that I will have a singleton pregnancy throughout. I heard she made the same remarks to other patients before. I dont feel any respect left for her. I continue to see her because she is the partner of my immunologist.

I know it is risky to bear twins at 40 yrs old. But, I dont know the magnitude of risk a twin pregnancy entails. I dont know if i would pray for a set of twins or not? I was reading  about twin pregnancy stories on the web. Ouch... Cholestasis, premature labor, preeclampsia and broken water bag....

Twins?

6 days post embryo transfer my beta hcg was 138.
8 days post embryo transfer my beta hcg was 384.
11 days post embryo transfer my beta hcg was 1908.

My fingers were crossed as I wait for my obgyne to insert her transvaginal ultrasound. Today is 5w2d. Two gestational sacs were spotted. But, only one yolk sac was detected. Why I always have so many issues? Why I always have something to blog?

Maybe the first embry splits faster than the second embryo. The first embryo was expanded grade AA. It looks like a number 8. While the second embryo was still intact inside its shell- expanding grade AA. We used assisted hatching on both embryos. Perhaps, the development on the second embryo is a little bit slower.

I was brainwashed by my obgyne today. She and her bad mouth. Do I still wish for a twin? Come what may. I pray for happy, healthy intelligent baby (ies)!

What gender do I wish for? On my first pregnancy, I wished for a girl. But, I was rewarded with a little boy. It seems that I dont have any gender preference this pregnancy ya. I dont get affected when friends say: they wish for a girl for me this pregnancy.

On uterus lining thickness... How thin is too thin? My lining hickness is 1.48cm. Is bed rest really required? I am obedient enough to stay in the house but I can lay on bed for the whole day.

My midnight snack: pork skin or potato chips?

Why is my Sgpt and creatinine above border? I am eating on low protein diet on my own initiative. I have not visited my doctor yet. I guess it wont greatly affect my embryo(s) for now as my albumin is within the range.  Shocks... My globulin and drvvt... Where is my beloved immunologist?

I ate veggies and few pieces of meat today.  No wonder, I am hungry! What shall I eat? Bread , biscuits or potato chips? These are carbohydrates. I am on steroids and I dont want to get problem with my blood sugar later on. Veggies, dumplings? I am old school I use steamer instead of microwave. This means 15 minute wait. I am really hungry.

What is better crispy pork skin (chicharon) or potato chips? Ouch, chicharon has more protein than potato chips. I thought I was cutting protein because of my elevated creatinine. I go for chicharon. Aya... Dont want to think too much. Potato chips tomorrow!

By the way, what caused my kidney and liver havoc? Is it the prednisolone or the estradiol or some other meds? My estradiol was  2700 today. Last pregnancy it shot up to 11000. I thought my hormones look great. Maybe I am experiencing its adverse reactions. I had a record high progesterone at 86. But it was just 33.8 last week in Hong Kong. Something could be wrong with my nearest lab. Do I have an obsessive compulsion disorder? I called the laboratory to ask whether their reagent is new brand or new stock. I ended up taking another progesterone test after three days. My progesterone was 46 on the third day prior to my Proluton dose. What is the essence of blood test? I will be satiated only when the values are near my expected? Contrary to the progesterone value, my obgyne said my progesterone was low and my uterine lining was thin.

Could she be bluffing again? When does implantation bleeding occur? Could the brown spots be implantation bleeding?

Check up tomorrow.  Can the doctor see the gestational sac tomorrow? Why did I not take beta hcg , BUN and creatinine today? I dont want to think too much. Relax. I dont want to play Sherlock holmes for now. What medicine should we take off tomorrow? Or Shall the doctor add more medicine?  Ouch! Wish me luck!

I am pregnant

I went to my obgyne for ultrasound today. She confirmed that the corpus luteum is still intact. This means I am pregnant. But how about the gestational sac(s), where are they? My uterus lining is thin. My prospect is gloomy. I hope the oral, vaginal and injectible progesterone could help.

Am I still excited to wait for the bhcg numbers? I had brown stains on my panty this morning.

Where is the stork?

I felt little cramps this afternoon. I felt having menstruation. Luckily, those discharge were sky blue and white due to Utrogestan and Estrofem pessary. I was happy to tell some of my friends that I maybe pregnant. I will update my friends on my beta hcg value tomorrow. Good night!

After my routine toilet visit, I have noticed a brownish stain on my panty. Me and my big mouth! I sighted a stork from afar few days ago. Where is it now? Did it intend to visit me?

Bed rest or not

I remembered I took a cab straight to the hotel on my first embryo transfer. The nurse told me no need to bed rest. But, I did lay on the bed for an hour. Perhaps the hcg had triggered some food cravings on me. I was craving for a mango pudding. My husband wasnt familiar with food nearby our hotel. Come what may... I guessed that I walked under a thousand steps.

For this cycle, after my embryo transfer last Thursday, I asked my doctor whether I can go shopping or not. He told me to rest for two days and come back to his clinic for blood extraction and hcg injection. Rest! I guess rest is not the same as bed rest.

I ate late breakfast on my embryo transfer day.  I starving after the embryo transfer. Grrr... My husband insisted that we ate lunch at the fast food. Why cant I play as a queen bee resting in my bee hive? Why cant he play as a worker bee for a while? We walk under five hundred steps from clinic to fast food to taxi station then to hotel room. Queen bee asked for supper and worker bee insisted we dine together in the restaurant. I must learn to control my worker bees and slaves.

The next morning, I had some short list of restaurants from the OpenRice apps. Lazy worker bee! I saw in my Steps app that I have walked 6000+ (Apiece) on the embryo transfer day, and the day after. I have walked 9000 steps on the second day post transfer. Ehem... I used to have a sedentary lifestyle back home. I crave for milk tea. I skipped the mango pudding.

Is bed rest necessary? I held my pee for about an hour already. 15 minutes after the embryo transfer, I went to pee. Did the embryo flashed out? Anyway, I think there is no uterine cavity, but instead there are two muscles pushing each other. No gap between the uterus lining. No balloon. The embryos are put in place already. It might not fall anymore.

After I pee, my husband insisted I lie on the bed again. I refused. Those flashed were already flashed. He then asked me to sit down for a while. I refused. I said I want to eat and go back to hotel as soon as possible because I want to lie down. Why not lie down first for half hour before we head to restaurant and hotel? Am I really that starving? Can I fast for half hour more?

Btw, what is the best thing to do after the embryo transfer? I have sticky blood. I use transderm nitro patch on my tummy. That should dilate my blood vessels in order to let more blood flow into the uterus. To have more blood flowing to the uterus, does this mean... i should be standing or sitting? Will lying on my back increase my blood flow to the uterus?

Come what may, I went to shop with Alex these few days. I need to buy his stuffs before I get grounded. Bed rest or not?

Hello me, hello everyone... i am back to blogging

Perhaps I had a caffeine overload last night. I slept at 3:30 am and I woke up at 6 am. I could hear Alex's playful scream from my bedroom. His playful scream gave me the assurance that he was fine. He had bumped his head on the floor last night. Went to the dining room to check what was he doing. I could not go back to sleep. Then, I just ate my breakfast and forced myself to go back to sleep. Maybe it was the temptation that keeps me from my soundful sleep.

Today is the 6th day post blastocyst transfer, three days ahead of my scheduled beta hcg test. I had beta hcg shot last Saturday. I may get a false positive- a false hope. Ouch... Temptations. HPT kit are jinx. I should not use one!  Should I test- yes or no?

I will not cry if it turned out to be a negative pregnancy. Will I cry if It turns out to be a false positive? Why am I so eager to test? Crazy Me! Perhaps, I am just an adventure lover. I wish to have a little adrenalin rush.  In the end,  I was not able to resist the temptation. I opened the kit and tried. Why did I buy the hpt in the first place? I guess it is the thrill of every expectant mom to test before their menstruation arrives? It was written on the hot box that that product detects pregnancy on the first day of missed period. If I ovulated on Nov 3, that means today is the 13th day post ovulation. Right timing to try but at the expense of synthetic hcg shot. Grr.. Curiosity killed me.

Few seconds pasts and I was just seeing a single line. After my bath, was there a new super faint line? Illusion vs reality. I cant wait to take me beta hcg. Hey, was it a false positive?

My beta hcg result were out by noon. Then, what? I realized that I have obsessive compulsive disorder. I could not believe the quantitative value. I feel if the hcg is over a 100, the hpt kit should return two dark lines. Should not it?