During this pregnancy, I got nightmares about ghosts trying to take away my baby from my womb. I dreamt of praying for safety. I remember last time when I had spotting, I also got that sort of nightmare. The ghost was trying to suck away the soul of my fetus from my womb. I also dreamt of robbers or bad guys kicking my womb.
When I woke up, I tend to remeber only a small fragment of my dreams. It is either: i am being chased by bad guys or ghosts and my bracelet was protecting me from evil. Are those warning signs for miscarriage? Perhaps, my dreams reflect my pessimism.
It is 11 days to go before my c-section. I cannot imagine how near I am to my delivery day. 11 days seems too long to me. I forgot the exact dream last night. I just remember when I prayed in my dream and I was not wearing a holy bracelet. Was it a coincidence? I dont wear that holy bracelet to sleep every night. Sometimes, I got those ghost dreams if I forgot to wear my bracelet.
I got that bracelet from my mom. She bought it for me when we went to China temple for pilgrim. Is this a psychologic thing or what? How can I comment? There is no scientific evidence to prove the efficacy of amulet. I cant imagine how my subconsciousness was programmed : wearing my bracelet confers protection against evil. Anyways, I hope I am really blessed by God on this pregnancy. I wish to go to the China temple again to offer my gratitude after giving birth.
Up to now, I cannot imagine myself carrying the baby, breastfeeding and the likes. I pray for smooth delivery and happy healthy baby.
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