Two days to go

I did not cry last night, but I kept on thinking what if I move the delivery date, I have my c-section in another hospital or I change my obgyne?

Can I still move the delivery date? My blood is getting thicker. I afraid the babies may die. I have stopped aspirin  8 days ago.

I have not find my anesthesiologist yet. The first prospect is going abroad. The second prospect had a prior engagement. Who shall I end up with? I hope I will not end up with Dr. Billy Ong. Where in the world have you seen an anesthesiologist who never ask for patient's allergies. I cannot forgot his infamous remarks: " no patient gets allergy from anesthesia, perhaps they Are only allergic to preservatives. I will not risk my career on you." Ouch ouch.... What is propofol? Is it a soy based anesthetics? If somebody is allergic to soy, will he not be allergic to Preservative-free Propofol?

I am allergic to dyes. Most of the dyes are aniline and azo based. Ai... I think i will be allergic to ester anesthestics. Because its hydrolysis produce P-aminobenzoic acid. Ouch... It has NH2 attached to be zene ring- its an aniline! I guess aniline allergy patients will be have allergic reaction to PABA, because its chemical structure are very similar.

My first born son is still young! ... Amen! I am freaking out.

I have another issue. I dont like morphine. I wish to propose fentanyl. Am I too nosy? I feels its my body and Its my life.