Do i need to see a perinatologist?

Why am I reluctant to seek for a second opinion regarding the subchorionic hemorrhage? Do i need to see a perinatologist? What shall be her management plan? Am I reluctant to see another obgyne because I am so attached with my current obgyne?

Is my autoantibodies the root cause of my hemorrhage? I thought my ESR was great. And, the globulin was still within the range ya. But, those data were a week old already. Let us see my updated lab report.

hemorrhage- 7w1d

My black pants were drenched with blood this morning. Had it be other color, I dont know what would be the public reaction? There was a big chunk of blood as well. It was about 3 inch x 2 inch. I was tempted to pick that bloody thin in public urinal for histopath. But, I felt groused. What was that bloody thing?

If the blood comes from outside the cervix, why was it a sudden pour? I was thinking it should be dripping not pouring. I wished my obgyne has checked my vaginal walls yesterday. Maybe we can put topical wound sealant. Should I stop all my pessaries? Should I stop heparin?

I sent my obgyne an sms message informing her about the vaginal bleeding. Luckily, despite of my obgyne's clinic day off today, she was also on her way to her clinic. She examined my vagina today. She said it must be from the cervix. Now, she had spotted the hematoma. The hematoma wasnt there yet yesterday. She asked me to contact my immunologist immediately. She said its immune rejection.

I thought I was extremely lucky this cycle. I thought my pregnancy will be as smooth as the breeze. The blood were storming in my uterus. There was also hematoma.

My babies are safe

Glad to hear that my babies are safe. There was no bleeding inside the uterus. Period! I did not interrogate her much. I dont want her to ask me questions anyway. She just said maybe my tiny blood vessels had bursted. Yeah, perhaps the lacerations were caused by Estrofem and Crinone. I feel prickly sting when I use Estrofem these days. There heat rate has increased to 132 and 144 respectively. So far, so good! Thank god.

What was the culprit?

What was the culprit behind my vaginal bleeding? Was it the bitter melon? I ate bitter melon yesterday and I found on the web that it may cause fetal bleeding. Some sites say it is safe though. What can i do, the harm is already there.
I continue with my medications today. Am I banking on false hope? Should my donor proceed with blood letting? I cant wait to see my obgyne today.
Dear god, pls grant me happy, healthy, intelligent babies. I would rather choose miscarriage than having children with birth defects. I am scared.

Where is my motivation?

I went into panic mode in the early evening. I was so nervous when I saw my hands full of blood. My bathroom lighting switch was also covered with blood. When I came back home, I still smelled the blood odor in my toilet. I wiped the blood stains and I am still hoping that I will move on to the next chapter of my pregnancy.  I have the strong feeling that my embryos are safe. Thank god. No more bleeding.

I dont know if I will regret my cheat day. For now, I am still contemplating my next action plan. I dont know if I would dare to get pregnant again. May it add toll to my health? Whenever I read the literature attached to the medicine, I see cancer, thrombosis...  Sometimes, I am chickening out. Where is my motivation?

I just spent 120k pesos for my ivig last sunday. Is my miscarriage too soon? Why prolong the agony, if this twins is not meant for me?  If miscarriage / preterm would happen in my second trimester, perhaps I will cry more. Dear god, pls dont break my heart.  Come what may.

For now, im blogging. Trying to keep myself sane. From now on,  I will abide house arrest and bed rest. I hope its not yet late. I just wish for happy, intelligent, healthy babies, if god permits.

Cheat day- 6w5d

Today is a cheat day. I walked to a bakeshop to buy a cake for my godson. I delivered the cake. Then, I shopped and dine with my baby at the nearby mall. Is driving prohibited during pregnancy? I drove to my doctor last Saturday night as well. After all, I should not act like a sleepy pig at home.

We shopped and dined at the nearby mall. My baby's eating mood this afternoon was the total opposite at lunch. He is a picky eater. I was so happy with the volume of ramen he slurped down. I had my own share of gluten enriched ramen. It was yummy. I will be gluten free again tomorrow.

When I arrived home, I watched how my playful son walk and how he pulls along my bag. After few minutes his nanny came. I went to my room to check my pending emails. Then, suddenly I felt my pants were wet. Am i experiencing urinary incontinence? I rush to the toilet and discovered those were fresh blood.

I rushed to the hospital afterwards. The ultrasound department has cut off at 5 pm. The resident docto just said there was no wound and polyp on the cervix. Now, the bleeding had stopped. I have just returned home. Are the babies safe? I will go to my obgyne tomorrow morning. I guess the bleeding came from the inside of my uterus. Do we still have heartbeats?

Two heartbeats

It was indeed two heartbeats. Double the blessing, double the excitement! Btw, There is a big difference between fraternal and identical twins. Fraternal twins means two sets of HLA. What am I carrying fraternal or identical twins? Fraternal twins means stronger immune response. Oh my god. I thought I am spared from ivig, since we have these heartbeat already.

 I am having my ivig infusion right now. I will be also needing LIT amid the zika virus scare. what is the incidence of zika virus in Manila?  Zika is self limiting. Patients may heal on its own without knowing they had zika.