Sleepy baby

Last week, i had my betamethasone injection. That may also be the culprit for fewer fetal movements.  Whatever... Benadryl is safe for pregnancy. But, it can also sedate the baby. My conscience is clear.

Learn to say 'No' to nepotism

I realized I should make my own stand. I should say 'No' to nepotism. I thought of this several times already. It is my right to choose my own doctor.

I dont want to regret my decision of not insisting to have a neonatologist for my baby. I need to learn the art of saying 'no' to her sister-in-law, regular pediatrician.

Say 'No' to Benadryl

I went to have NST cardiotocograph last sunday. The internet had used the buzzer for nine times already but the baby just had a little response to the buzz. The I told the intern that the baby was moved a lot on friday. I seldom feel his movement on Saturday and Sunday. It seems that he barely kicked once. Actually, I am a little worried that is why I went to the hospital on Sunday afternoon instead of Sunday evening or Monday evening.

Good news: the baby's heart rate was good. But, it seems like the baby was sedated. Btw, was the baby sedated? Ehem, ehem I took Benadryl for two days already. So that was the culprit.

My immunologist said I have dry skin. But, I have applied body lotion for several times a day. I was lazy to buy his recommended brand of hypoallergenic lotion. Because it is only available in our nearby mall and drug stores.

My brother and mom laughed at my story. Then, I remembered Aveeno Oatmeal Lotion which I have used during my maiden days. Thank god, Aveeno helped! No exagerration... It was fast acting.

I thought Benadryl was my silver bullet. I can hit two birds with one stone. I could stop the itch and have a good sleep. Benadryl is FDA category B. But, it can cross placenta.

Is benadryl addicting?

I feel intense itch all over. The itch is real, Im not acting! I love the side effect of benadryl - good sleep. It sounds like Im starting to get addicted to benadryl. I took benadryl couple of times already. It usually take it at 3:30 to 4 am, when I widely awake and itching all over.

My itch is real. I dont have cholestasis but i applied plenty of lotion all over my body for several times today. I just dont know why the itch is more intense in midnight.

DIY labor

I had three cycles of betamethasone injections. Usually, it was injected on two consecutive days- 24 hours apart. I thought I was scheduled to have my last betamethasone injection at 2 pm yesterday. To my surprise, when I arrived my obgyne's it was closed already. Ai, I had a DIY (do-it-yourself) injection. I injected it on my right butt. I thought that was easy but my left arms got cramps while positioning the syringe. Naughty me, I called my obgyne's secretary to bug their conscience. Finally, I cracked a joke. I said the most important thing is my obgyne should be available during my delivery. Otherwise, I may need to carefully study on how my neighbor's dog did her DIY labor. Why are the dogs more intelligent than me?

Ouch... That was really a bad joke. It reminded me of my monstrous obgyne ( my first obgyne .)  My first obgyne is my current obgyne's mentor. Chances are, she may act as reliever should my current obgyne not be available. Ouch ouch ouch. I am not playing a battle of pride. I can't explain my feelings. I just pray that I will be need her service again!

It is now 4:50 am, why am I still awake? Is it because of betamethasone? Or is it becausse I am emoting again? People with autoimmune disorder are belongs to the lowest class of the society. And I dont deserve to live in this world. Ouch! I should had requested her recite the Hyprocratic Oath in from of me ya! Somehow, I regret I did not take up medicine course before. I thought that was the least challenging profession. 

19 days to go- fingers crossed

19 days to go and It will be 36 weeks 2 days of my pregnancy. I will be having a c-section. I have mixed emotions: excited and scared.

Im scared of the following:
1. Bloods... I need 8 units of platelets 4 units of fresh frozen plasma and 2 units of standby whole blood
2. Anesthesia
3. Hemolytic disease of the newborn

I told my hdn concerns to my obgyne, it seems she doesnt care much. She just told me that her sister in law is very diligent. But, diligent does equate to intelligent. Ouch. I wish to have a neonatologist and not a regular pediatrician. I dont know how to request for one without offending my bratty obgyne. I wish I can consult my immunologist first before going into c-section. I dont know why I only trust my fairy godfather? Hmm... Perhaps he is an internist/ immunologist.

I dont want to give my obgyne a chance  to blame ghosts' month for any untowards incident that my happen to me and my baby. I am a believer of ghosts' month. But, I wish to be more practical for the sake of the baby. Premature baby and baby whose blood type is other than o (from blood type o mom) are at risk of jaundice.

I feel the mechanism of RH and ABO agglutination and hemolysis is the same. I feel there is no difference between B and A blood. Grr... Where did she get the excuse that type b blood is more strong? I dont know what is the proper translation for strong? Does she mean more potent? I just shut up and sent her an sms message explaining my side. I feel type o blood has antibody to A and B blood. Hi, obgyne... I feel if my antibodies accidentally goes into my son's blood stream it may cause hemolysis. I am still puzzled why my sister had exchange transfusion. My guess was my mom's antibody had breached into my sister's blood stream. That caused her red blood cells to rupture. And thereby causing her to have too much bilirubin- severe jaundice. But my sister was not breastfeed.

I miss fairy godfather.

Confused - fetal weight, AC and uterine growth restriction

Three weeks ago, my fairy godfather was suspecting an intrauterine growth restriction. He said in the span of 17 days, AC has just increased by two days wide. FL has just increased by 10 days, while bpd was on track. I was given Heraclene and my amino acids were increased to 42 tablets per day. The estimated fetal weight was 1.8kg.

A week after (two weeks ago), the estimated fetal weight was still 1.8 kg. Obgyne told me not to limit my food intake. I should take insulin shots instead. She said my immunologist was exaggerating. She considers iugr only when there is two weeks lag in the development.

Last week, the fetal weight was 2.5kg. How come the weight gain was above 700g in the span of 7 days? The estimated fetal age based on AC is 36weeks. Perhaps her previous measurement was wrong. It was supposed to weigh more. How to measure the abdominal circumference? Is the baby in slant view? How to estimate the fetal weight? Obgyne told me I need insulin! I became guilty on the food i ate. Maybe I have eaten high protein but too much calorie. My blood sugar was normal most of the time. I admit, sometimes my blood sugar tends to spike. Should I really take insulin? I handed my obgyne my home blood sugar monitoring record. Wow! Nice!

Is there abnormality with my baby? Why the baby gained too much? This week the fetus estimated age is just 32 weeks based on AC. Its weight has dropped by 300g. Now, it weighs just 2.2 kg. Why? Did i eat too few? Will the abdominal circumference measurement be affected by baby's movement or breathing?

I went to see my endocrinologist this week, I complained my blood sugar  why sometimes my blood sugar drops to 65 and 70?  Why sometimes my insulin resistance was high? I am still under observation til now. This means I have been pricking 4x60 for days= 240 times already.

I miss my immunologist. He is missing. What has happened to him? Thank god, my crp became negative on its own. Oopps, lab error last time?