fussy nights again

I never thought I could handle such a fussy baby. Alex slept a 7 pm then went fussy around midnight. The challenging part was midnight and before dawn. He would really dig his face into my bra and cry out loud. It was inconsolable. He would shun away from the feeding bottle nipple. I have tried inserting the feeding bottle nipple into his mouth while he was breastfeeding but to no avail. He strongly refuses feeding bottle during bedtime.

I woke up at 4 am today. I feed him from bottle but he never got satiated. His mouth would position exactly to where my breasts are. I wrestled with him until he went knock out. 1.5 hour bout was not that tiresome because I was lying with him on the bed.

I am not getting enough sleep. Is my baby getting enough sleep? He just have few short naps during the day. Other babies could have long sleeps during the day.

I was tempted to feed him my breast during the dawn. Stop breastfeeding?  I feel I am racing against time again. I wish to have embryo transfer very soon. I want to give birth before the year of the dog. My zodiac , dragon , conflicts with dog. And I am 42 yr old by then. Another issue, I need to have embryo transfer before my anti-idiotypic antibody gets depleted.

Ouch.. my advise to couples: marry earlier.

no more sleepless nights

My baby was spoiled by nannies or perhaps by me. There was a time that I had no nannies. I could not cradle and dance my baby to sleep. I thought it was a clever idea to breastfeed my baby to sleep. Yes, it was indeed easy. Eventually, I became his human pacifier. Ouch... It seems like his crib has sensors. Whenever it try to lay him on this crib, he would suddenly awake and cry out loud. We slept on the recliner seat until one day he almost fell from the seat. Luckily, he was still hanging on the blanket and my husband saved him. Initially, side lying position for breastfeeding strained my butt and waist. But now, I have mastered it. I slept well at night.

My baby could not go to sleep without my breast. Ouch. I plan to wean by this month end. I want to have another round of embryo transfer. Is weaning a must?