Week 22- CAS findings

I went to see a perinatologist tonight for doppler and congenital anomaly scan. I was very happy to learn that my fetus is perfectly fine- no soft marker for chromosomal abnormalities. Nuchal fold is good. Fetal development is great. The only catch is nuchal cord coil.

What if he creates another loop instead of untangling? Ouch... My fate. I did my best but nuchal cord coil is beyond my control.

Dear god,
I pray for safe pregnancy and happy, healthy and intelligent baby. I surrender to my fate.

Dear baby,
Please enjoy your moments in my womb. I hope that we have a yuanfen. And we are destined to be mother and son? I wish to show you the beauty of our world. I surrender to my fate.

Dear husband,
Can you imagine how painful are the heparin shots? 1 have consumed more than 300 shots already. We are almost there... It is difficult to contemplate any loss. Huhuhu.

I accidentally ate a black list food

My husband brought me fish steak, shrimp and etc... Those were special delivery from my niece's party. Not bad! The salmon has a citrus scent and... it was really yummy to a starving mommy. When I started to feel satiated,  I discovered the my 'salmon steak' is white. It does not even taste like salmon. Oh my god, that is in the pregnancy black list. Later, I discovered it was a blue marlin.

I have been very careful with my food- specially on fishes in the past. I refused to eat tuna, mackerel. Ouch! Marlin's mercury content is even higher. To what extent could it harm my unborn child? Could it cause severe nerve damage, autism or cerebral palsy.

I am 21st week tomorrow. I have congenital anomaly scan on the 22nd week. Could the mercury cause severe inflammation to my baby's brain? Has anyone eaten swordfish, shark or high mercury fish during their pregnancy?

Unfortunately, the mercury toxicity can't be undone. Is this my so called 'karma'? Huhuhu

Can i acquire cancer through lymphocyte immunization therapy?

Happy mother's day to all mom out there. I envy people who get pregnant and successfully deliver healthy babies spontaneously.

My pregnancy is really a challenge! I just had my third Smoflipid infusion the other day because I had an inflammed placenta. I heard a devastating news yesterday- one of my blood donor got sick. She suffered from unexplained bruises around her knees. Ouch...what could be the cause- leukemia or itp?

Oh my god! Let me google whether leukemia can be acquired through blood transfusion. According to the web, cancer cant be acquired through blood transfusion. It sounds funny, because cancer patients are not capable of donating blood. Another reason is the recipient immune system will be able to fight off the cancer cells. Oops... But I am taking Imuran- a strong immune suppressant used by kidney transplant paitients to prevent donor kidney rejection.

Another question... Is leukemia caused by retrovirus? Yep, it maybe caused by human t-lymphotropic virus.  http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Human_T-lymphotropic_virus

I hate blood products. Ivig provides alternative to LIT. But, it also poses the risk of viral infection and prions. I am pathetic. Is this what a product of my stupidity or my leap of faith? My friends were safe with LIT and Ivig. Huhu... Not me. I pray my donor doesnt have leukemia. What can her diagnosis be? Either ways, it is scary. If she has idiopathic thrombocytopenia purpura... Anti-platelet antibody what will be my platelet count next week.? I guess I may cry when I consult my fairy godfather (immunologist).